Looking for things for my new apartment and making plans for moving and packing....all of that has been pretty stressful. I have a lot of crap that I've accumulated over all of my life. My parents kicked me and all my stuff out of their house when I moved into this place so all of things I've owned that I haven't thrown out at this point are currently either in my bedroom with me or in the storage closet across the hall. It's quite a bit, as I'm sure you can imagine. A life time of....things. It's hard because I have decide to what stays and what goes and where all the garbage is going to be put. So I have a lot on my mind.
And moving has definitely made me think about money, as I'm sure it does for everyone. It's all made me dream about the day when I won't have to ask, "Will I be able to get everything paid on time and still get to eat this month?" which is a pretty crappy thought process now that I think about it but I am certainly not the only person who thinks about this on a day to day basis. Not that that gives me any comfort.
More than anything, though this is all making me excited about my future, not anxious or worried. If I were to get a job after school that paid 30k a year (maybe not even that much) I'd be able to afford most spacious one bedroom apartments in my area all by myself with money left for minor lifestyle expenses. I told my dad something similar and he seemed upset that I didn't want to achieve more for myself. That is definitely not that case and I certainly want much more for myself. But I have to think about the not so distant future and I can't think about making six figures until I think about making slightly more than the hourly wage I do now.
Maybe thinking in those terms isn't great. I'm basically saying to myself, "Okay, dear, just don't be homeless. There's time to think about being successful ten years from now. Now, just think about not being a bum." Which is fine, but it's not really giving me challenging goals is it? I went into college knowing there was slim chance I would get an amazing career right after graduation. I went in declared as an English major (HAH), switched to game design almost immediately and then switched to animation. Pretty niche paths, right? And not the majors you think of when you want to start being financially independent right away.
I'm remaining positive though. It appears that just having a degree will get you a full time job. It might not be in your chosen field, but it's money. And there is (fingers crossed) plenty of time for me to explore my horizons as I get older and experience more things.
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I'm working more on portraits and I've got one more to share!
Definitely still working on it, so watch out for my progress!
I also caved and got an instagram! My username is kowbonez so look me up. I haven't started taking a ton of picture just yet, but I plan on it, especially once this whole moving process gets going.
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